Enough
I'm pretty sure, in a flash of a moment, I just heard God speak "NOW" to my spirit about something God put on my heart six years ago.
My immediate response?
"Oh, God! But I don't know how to do that yet! I'm not qualified."
This has been my default response for so long. To so many pieces of my calling.
For too long.
Enough.
Enough.
It is time to change both my response and my attitude.
And then I remembered a teaching from Ray Van der Laan about Peter walking on the water, and how his doubt was not in Jesus, but his doubt was in his own ability to be like Jesus. Peter doubted himself and the Spirit-empowered abilities given to him in Jesus to be a good disciple and imitate his Lord.
So I’m sitting here letting that sink in. How often have I doubted not what Christ can do, but what Christ can do through me? In doubting myself, am I therefore also doubting God because, if I am created in the image of God (Genesis 1:27) and Jesus said that I (we) will do greater things even than He (John 14:12)—what does that mean, then, if I don’t think God made the right choice in choosing me because I am somehow not enough? (How can something or someone created by God’s own masterful, genius, loving, empathic, divine design somehow not be enough? How arrogant is that, really?)
So I say,
Enough is Enough.
No more doubting.
No more self-deprecation.
Enough of this attitude, because
I am Enough,
because God is Enough.
Going through a storm but I won’t go down
I hear Your voice carried in the rhythm of the wind to call me out
You would cross an ocean so I wouldn’t drown
You’ve never been closer than You are right now—”Jireh,” Elevation Worship & Maverick City Music